|Fix Me will be out from Simon and Schuster in 2011. |
The morning sun drags me outside. I stand on the porch and turn my face up, feel the warmth seep into my skin, picture the sun's radiation searing my DNA, warping it until it goes crazy. My skin feels red and swollen when I go back into the house. I take a washcloth and hold it cold and wet against my skin, look in the mirror because it's safe now, my image is distorted by an afterimage of the sun burning itself into my retinas. It's safe now, because all I see is a shape, a shadow, not a person.
I'm broken. But nobody's trying to fix me.